It’s been quite a year…
The amount of time that it’s taken for me to write this post is a direct reflection of the challenges I’ve had and the healing that I’ve had to undergo.
I’ve always been one to be honest and open about my personal experiences, and I can’t imagine that ever changing, but what I’ve forgotten over time is how to make sure the healing work I’m doing in my own life is as prioritized as the work I help others do. It seems so obvious but as someone who’s learning how to do this Ministry thing I promise you… it isn’t. When you combine the emotional tides of your inner struggle with the technological access to obsessively spew it all over everyone through an impersonal and sometimes anonymous medium like the web and social media… it’s pretty easy to get lost in the “fight” you want to wage rather than the healing you want to share.
I found myself at a crossroads of action and principle. That place where you’re called to act but have no point of reference to help figure out what to do. So, like a lot of people who find themselves unsure of what to do, I fell back on habits and tendencies that I’ve spent many years trying to heal. I suppose you could describe it as a spiritual or metaphysical “relapse” of sorts. Pretty sure I’m on a long list with tons of amazing people who’ve had this experience and then gone on to do fantastic things. So, if nothing else I can tell you that healing is not always a linear process and that if you’ve ever had the same problem, we’re in each others’ good company.
To heal, you really have to be committed to the activities of being healthy. Someone who says, “I want to be fit and in shape!” can’t very well have the thing they want if they spend all their time eating unhealthy food and sitting around all day. In that same way, someone who wants to be a potent spiritual leader and an ally for powerful social causes can’t very well lend any valuable assistance by waging social media warfare against complete strangers and watching Netflix Originals, no matter how “woke” they might be (though you really should check out Requiem for the American Dream and 13th at the earliest possible moment). If we want to be as powerful a part of our own spiritual evolution as we can be, we have to learn how to do it without the need for violent revolution all the while trying to avoid being polarized or paralyzed by the task at hand and the bad habits that have held us back. As Dr. Holmes understood, this is simple… but not easy.
In the modern age, it’s easier to get lost in the idea that the fastest and most effective way to communicate is also the best or most appropriate.
None of this is a revelation in any other context than within ourselves. This is all fairly anecdotal unless it’s fortified with our personal experiences and then confirmed by a powerful outcome. For myself this powerful outcome has bun to reveal itself as the measure of patience that’s required to sit here and write all of this while using the delete and backspace keys more than any others. Because when we awaken to the real value of what we’re trying to share… we stop peddling it like someone that can’t stop babbling and we start sharing it like someone who’s really “doing the work” as they say.
So, as I continue my work, I’ve been called back to this beautiful medium. I’ve spent all these months in deep learning and deeper healing, even if the train-wreck has been quite public at times, but now I’m finally feeling prepared to start sharing. To start unpacking the powerful and personal journey that I’ve been struggling and growing with. I intend to be as direct as ever, as honest as ever and as willing to work as ever. Join me over the coming weeks and months as I express my insights on Misogyny, Spiritual Relapse, Racial Tensions, the Prosperity Gospel, Social Justice, Fundamentalism, Environmentalism, Personal Accountability and countless other topics.
The time has come to step up to the level of discourse befitting powerful revelations and genuine insights. I’ll need you there… holding me accountable. Inspiring me and challenging me. Join me… let us find what is to be found and celebrate what is revealed. Let us heal together as we have sought to heal ourselves and know that something great is seeking to emerge. Thank you for sharing this road with me…